{13 Weeks}

Not much of a baby bump yet (unless it's due to bloating) but I'm hoping within the next few weeks I'll have a round tummy to show! At week 13 I'm still a little sleepy, but my energy levels are up compared to the rest of the first trimester. 

I have had a large appetite and I'm very thankful for it. I become a mad woman when I'm craving something and I won't rest until I have it. Cravings lately have included...

-Pickles

-Celery & Cucumbers with Ranch

-Popcorn and M&M's

-Green apples with caramel

-Cereal and milk

-Buffalo wings (or anything spicy)

-Noodles & Company 

-Baked potato from Wendy's (conveniently located right behind our house!)

We had a bit of a scare over Easter weekend due to some abnormal cramping. The nurses were a little concerned and wanted to see me to make sure everything was okay. It was a really difficult time for me--not knowing if these cramps were an indication of miscarriage. It was the first time during this pregnancy that I realized this baby will never belong to me. I felt some sort of entitlement like there was no way I could lose my baby, but I have to learn to give up control. The possibility of loss is never gone...not even after birth and if I don't learn how to come to terms with that now it will drive me crazy.

I am so, so thankful for this gift. My goal for the second trimester is to live less in fear and more in pure joy of each moment.

Week 13 was a rough week, but I got to see my baby sucking it's thumb so all is well :)
PLUS baby Faeh's first concert will be The Avett Brothers tonight so I'm a pretty happy mama.

Cheers,
Jord